Tonight I'm feeling better. Much better.
I've come to peace with how my life is now, and I'm excited and optimistic about the future.
B left to visit his parents and left Hunter and I to ourselves tonight. I was thankful for that. Hunter woke up crying, and I was able to sit in the leather rocking chair downstairs and rock him to sleep while lullaby's were playing in the background. If B was here, that would have never happened. It felt so good sitting with my little boy in my arms, his tiny arms clinging to my neck.
That is bliss.